ABOUT ME

Hi! I’m Beastly.

I publish most work under the name Alexander Cheves, which is my real name. If you are reading this, you know me by my nickname, Beastly. I am an author, sex educator, and former sex worker.

I am 32 years old and live in Berlin. I was born in the U.S. and have lived in five countries and six cities. I speak English and some German. I have a cute butt.

I have written about sex, nightlife, and queer culture for over a decade. Details about my professional career can be found on my website. I wrote a book that became an Amazon bestseller and won an award! I write a sex column in Out Magazine and I edit Hinterhaus, a magazine about Berlin nightlife coming in 2024. My second book will come out in 2025, I hope.

I was a sex worker for over a decade, but I don’t do that anymore. Now I like to use my knowledge about sex to help others — because sex matters. I sometimes work with clients as a consultant or “sex coach.” If you have questions about this, send me a message via the ASK BEASTLY tab.

I am very sexually adventurous. Depending on the day, I am sexually fluid, pansexual, or gay. Most of my sex partners are men, but sometimes they are women, and sometimes they are non-binary. I have never found a term for me that fits just right, but since I love gay culture, I call myself “gay” most of the time. My pronouns are he, him, and his.

No, my nickname is not about bestiality. To read the story behind it, see my FAQ page. 

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Stay bad.

— B

31 Comments

  1. Hi Alexander,
    I just read your article, Going Clear. I thought it was awesome! As a 53 year-old “muscle daddy” living in Los Angeles, and in a 10-year relationship that just “opened”, your description of the “addiction” rings true…painfully true. Thanks for sharing, It was really entertaining and thoughtful.
    I will be looking for your work online going forward…and for you on Scruff, eventually, hopefully! 🙂
    Rob aka MslBck

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  2. How do I turn it into something ‘positive’? I just read your article on not breaching the topic on the ‘official day’… And it made me angry. I’m enraged that I can’t just deal with my diagnosis. When I’m not angry, I’m.. self destructive. Underneath it all, though.. I really just want to turn this (‘this’ being what my life has become) into something with utility. With purpose. How can I push beyond the anger and shame and depression and actually.. move on?

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  3. Just read your article on Advocate and followed the link here to your blog – insightful reading. I think many of use can relate to that conversation of shame, well intentioned though it may be I think it sticks with us. I remember on diagnosis day having similar thoughts, that the prophecy had been fulfilled. A prophecy of not just family but of friends who were very blunt in their criticism of some of the choices I made back in the day when I was negative but craving attention as I turned 40. I think our collective experiences will all differ, some of us do not cope, some do, some are better for it as it becomes a catalyst for change, or just a chance to grow as people through educating others and confronting stigma and discrimination when it rears its ugly head. Thank you for taking the leap, and for sharing it with us all. I’m looking forward to sitting down and reading through what I’m sure will be enlightening and entertaining blogs.

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  4. Alex, your site is indeed NSFW, but the contents are very informative & accurate. (I have taken a lot of courses on sexualities (including kinks & fetishes) in college. You have a way to describe them in an entertaining manner. I can relate more to your writing than those memorized from textbooks!
    What do you mean “gay dating’s worst nightmare”? LOL A well-informed date is irresistible!

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  6. I just read your op-ed from over a year ago about the things you’ve learned from dating a bi guy. I was so relieved to read and relate to someone else in this way. I have never felt so alone with my fears and insecurities in dating a bi guy, and reading your op-ed was the closest thing I’ve had to a friend to talk to about this. Someone who’s actually lived it; because there is no one else like that in my world. And plus, I liked your voice (in the op-ed), so it was like a bonus that you’re a cool writer. Thanks for the work you do.

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  7. Hi Beastly / Alexander
    I have recently discovered your writing through an article on Advocate and then signed up for your newsletter on your blog. Wonderful work and I love your writing style/voice and the topics you are tackling.
    I am a 62 yr old anonymous sex and kink daddy living in Cape Town, South Africa. And have just read in your bio that you have also lived in South Africa. Wonderful news. Do you ever come here to visit.

    Keep up the good work and wonderful sex writing.

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  8. I tried sex with men infrequently and i am not afraid but i just like it i don’t really discuss or reveal it out of fear and privacy issues

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      1. I want to explain is that i had sex with a guy and i like it i mean i tried having sex with a guy who is HIV undetectable and i liked it the guy told me his status after we had sex but not before

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  9. So i’m interested in the gay sober fisting community as it is a ever widening sub culture within the gay sober community in general… it’s a little intimidating but i feel like i may be over reacting sometimes… i keep seeing guys with very strategically placed red-bandanas at my meetings and i get so turned on cuz all i can think about is that he’s into fisting because it’s apparent that he wants people to notice the red hanky! LOL am i just wishing or is this red-hanky really making a come back? And should i just keep my mouth shut or should i start wearing one too! LOL i’m so lost what should i do 😀 I’m new to this and very nervous

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    1. Red hankies aren’t exclusive to the sober fisting community, but it’s safe to say that most people in the fisting community will recognize what a red bandana means and wear them in sexually-charged spaces (leather bars, IML, MAL, Folsom, events like that). To my knowledge there are not any visual codes or hankies used to specifically define oneself as a sober fister. Fisting as a scene is not generally associated with sobriety, in fact its popularization in pre-AIDS 70s and 80s sex culture was charioted in with heavy drug use and was considered by many to be a scene that required mind-altering substances. That doesn’t mean every fister uses — they didn’t then and they don’t now — but I don’t think any of us who are sober fisters would deny that we are in the minority when it comes to our scene. Fisting is drug-heavy. When I see red hankies outside of token gay sex spaces, I don’t assume people wearing or holding them are into fisting — unless, of course, I’m in the Castro or SoMa. If you find yourself attending a gay space where guys may be hunting for sex and you’re into fisting, wear a red bandana, and this might help you find playmates. But if you’re looking to only play sober, you will have to communicate that yourself, because red bandanas do not specifically define sober play. As far as the hanky code goes, red has survived to be perhaps the most widely recognized hanky (or flag, as some guys call this “flagging”) since many fisters still flag. Red may be followed by black (heavy S&M), grey (bondage), and yellow (piss) as the most popular colors still in use, but there are countless more colors defining specific niche sex scenes that may or may not have ever been popularly used.

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  10. I’m new at the puppy play…. but have tried it and enjoyed it very much …. have a pup hood and i’m Waiting for my tail to arrive…
    I’m also in a MASTER slave Relationship with the same guy that i’m His puppy…INTERESTING AND very exciting

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  11. I am not interested in this scene. I am about as vanilla as it gets, LOL. But when I read the post on Towleroad regarding your site and your work, I had to comment. I was indoctrinated into the Christian mythology from birth, and while I still am a huge admirer of what Jesus said about pretty much everything (except the god crap), I don’t believe in magical deities or that stuff. For me, what really made me question the whole thing was religion’s obsession with sex and sexuality. If I give a blowjob to a hot married guy or get fucked in the dark in a storage unit rental, how exactly does that make me a bad person? I enjoyed it, he enjoyed it, what exactly is the prob? Why would a god or gods care if I had sex with someone, anyone, everyone? I am very glad that there are people like you in this world, people who question the accepted and refuse to be diminished by those with bizarre agendas. I’m glad there are people like you who recognize that everyone is different, we all have different tastes and desires, and while I might be vanilla, other’s might be mint chocolate chip or butter pecan. All flavors are good, and sex shouldn’t be something anyone is ashamed of having. Much love, brother.

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  12. I love your honesty of yourself in your recounting the past. My heart broke for you Alex when you wrote of the grief in your broken relationship. Your loss of your loved one. No matter the consequences you heroically carry on. Bravely you straddle through an HIV positive status and search fearlessly for your true, real, sexual self as a gay man. I fell in love with you. I am so glad you are writing and I am reading all I can from you. Your beauty is from inside you and I feel it.
    You make my life feel good as a gay man. Thank you.

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  13. Alex,
    I loved reading your 29 things to look for in a daddy it really helped me. thanks so much i love knowing more about this and to read and tell by your words that you are a beautiful man inside and out. Reading some of your works makes me proud to be a bisexual woman.

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  15. Hi beastly I wanted to share what it is like for a black 26 year old guy that has autism and is dealing with LGBT in a way that is simpler I am not afraid to share what my experiences are but I am still new to things

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  18. Alexander – I have been reading your blog on and off for a couple of years. I don’t remember exactly how I found it – it may have been a recommendation by a mutual friend (Race). I’ve read a great deal of your blog, on all topics, but mostly your personal experiences and thank you for the sage advice and heartbreaking honesty. Just a few moments ago, I finished reading your COVID Epicenter piece. It brought me to tears, which lately seems to be a habit with me. I was truly afraid we were going to lose your voice, a voice I have found to be compelling, thoughtful, caring and quite frank. To see your update regarding the two-book deal brought real joy to my heart. Congratulations!!!

    We are all experiencing the most difficult and challenging series of events ever witnessed. All of us need to take the time necessary to stay mentally and physically well and to seek help if needed. Your blog is one of those places people come to, and we all need to understand that you too are human. Stay well, let us know the moment your first book is to be published, and thank you…Namaste.
    Brian

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  19. I’ve just discovered your blog today and am finding it very enjoyable. You often reference anal sex as if it’s the natural end game for two men. I’m wondering if you think a man can have a fulfilling gay sex life without anal play.

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  20. I’m enjoying your writing. You somehow have picked up a bit of the Mark Thompson style, i.e. keep the facts simple and true.

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  21. I’m sorry to say I visit your site infrequently (probably because with so much going on in life I simply get distracted and forget about it), but I always enjoy it when I’m here. (I think that means I should subscribe…) The breadth and depth of your experience and willingness to share that with others is terribly refreshing and so vitally necessary in our current society rife with misinformation and “fake news.” For a long time I have wished that our nation had a federally-sanctioned, fully comprehensive, and judgment-free sex education curriculum, one that wasn’t afraid to speak in plain-and-simple terms about sex and sexuality. While that wouldn’t fix the prejudice out there, it would certainly do a lot for those who are seeking answers to a seemingly mysterious and often baffling subject. You draw back that veil of mystery and confusion and explain issues in a clear, concise, no BS manner. Would that everyone who was in the field of sex education could do the same. Had you been MY sex education teacher back in school, I’m sure it wouldn’t have taken me nearly as long as it did to figure out the bulk of my persona (there are still some things I’m still figuring out, btw…) This is all just a long-winded way to say “thank you,” and encourage you to keep doing what you’re doing in the way you’re doing it. Congrats on your book deals. Stay safe, stay positive, stay real. —Peace and Contentment, John

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