How to Support Queer Kids

Hi, my friend thank you for your blog and opening my mind to subjects I wonder about. My question is I guess I have become an older mentor to a College Junior in my hometown. We met while he was working on a College assignment. Being 22 years older than him full disclosure I am in my early 40s. After he interviewed me for his assignment he turned off the recorder and the conversation went personal.

He admitted that earlier that same week he got “stealthed” by a local older man through a Grinder Hookup. The college guy admits freely that he hooks up because he is horny who isn’t. And that he has hooked up with over 150 people in the past four years. I am not saying this for judgment I am just laying out the context.

At New Year’s I had him over for dinner and we talked during that conversation we discovered that he had also hooked up with a mutual acquaintance who is HIV positive. My young friend who started Prep after his stealthing encounter and a rather long and embarrassing trip to our local rural Emergency Room has gone through a terrible time with parents who tried to get him into conversion camp and just mental abuse. And he was raped his first year on campus here. 

I feel as a community leader I need to do as much as I can and as a friend too. Besides being a kind ear, trying to arrange counseling, connecting him with the nearest major metro men’s health clinic what can I do I don’t want to let him down and I want him to feel safe here. Plus I feel like it’s a duty to be nonjudgmental and supportive. What ideas do you have?

It sounds like you’re doing everything right. Being nonjudgmental and supportive is the best course. Remember that his experiences may be very different from yours. New tech and rapidly evolving culture make for drastic differences in experience between different generations of gay men.

I know you’re worried about him, but he’s doing all the right things. He’s talking to someone (you) about his sex life and seeking support. He’s going to the clinic. He’s taking PrEP. That’s a lot for someone who is still figuring all this stuff out. He’s actually being very responsible considering the trauma he’s endured. He’s doing more to take care of himself than many men twice his age.

The trauma from homophobic families, sexual abuse, rape, and other horrible (albeit common) experiences that befall many young queer people leave a residue. I don’t pathologize promiscuity — there’s nothing wrong with being hypersexual — but we do sometimes turn to sex as a coping mechanism. Many gay men try drugs, and there’s a plethora of reasons why substance abuse and alcoholism affect a disproportionate number of us. Culturally, we like to party, and many of us have rough childhoods.

But none of that is new. You already know all that. And you survived. I don’t know how old you are, but I assume your generation also battled AIDS on top of all that. And still, here you are.

I say all this in order to convey a simple point: it’s OK for this young man to be a little messy. You can’t spare him the rough parts of queer life or protect him from every pitfall. But you can be present in his life and simply exist as evidence that one can make it. That’s the most powerful gift you can give him. That can save his life.

It’s good to listen and help where you can, but you also have to let him run a little bit. He will make some mistakes, and he needs to. We grow through trial and error, wonder and heartache.

The things you share — the seemingly universal gay experiences of family rejection and finding support among others — is where you offer something very vital. Your life is proof that being gay will seem less dangerous and more manageable someday. He needs you in the same way I needed (and still need) my gay guides.

You can’t take him away from his parents, but you can be their antithesis — a safe space, a source of comfort and friendship. You can’t keep him from having sex with everyone in sight, but you can drive him to the clinic when he gets an STI (and he will). You can’t keep him from experiencing trauma, but you can point him in the direction of help. You can only support him — he has to do the leg work.

Tell him not to put himself under so much pressure, because pressure is all he knows. He’s been under pressure since before he can remember. Nearly every adult in his life, from the ones grading his papers to the ones he calls his parents, have reinforced this pressure — pressure to be “normal,” pressure to be straight, pressure to do well — and he’s undoubtedly struggling with the idea that he might not make all these people happy. He’s at the beginning of chasing that elusive thing called happiness as an adult gay man, and this pursuit will likely take him into scary and thrilling places. That’s what we want for him. That’s what he needs. There will be mistakes made along the way. There will be bad nights. Be a person he can call when they happen.

Love, Beastly

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